feeling better, maybe I should erase that. But then again, I'm
actually curious as to how others have dealt with similar situations.
See, I have my really low moments, I cry, vent, and then feel better
and remember that my life is pretty great, just the way it is.
Especially because I just got a new job!! Yes! I'll be working as a
researcher at community justice centers here in NYC, which will be
amazing. And I'll actually be using stuff I learned in grad school!
Woot! So excited to start. I'm feeling more confident already.
Also, it is spring and I am in love with the weather. I got to wander
around today with my friend Misha on the Highline and art gallery in
Chelsey. Life can't get much better than that.
I am really quite blessed, and it just takes a little bit of reminding
of that to get me smiling again. Life moves on. And it is good. And it
works out just how it needs to.
7 comments:
Suvi-
No you aren't the only one who feels low on some days but in overall thinks life is pretty sweet.
I hope you found someone to hold you while you feel asleep.
I'm sending you a virtual back rub.
Alisa
Suvi, I know exactly how you feel. It's like watching a train wreck in slow motion. You feel like you should be able to do something to stop it but you can't. It's just a totally crappy, helpless feeling.
I suggest doing an angry dance (like Brit in Flight of the Conchords) as often as necessary, talking to people about it (sounds like you're doing good on that so far), and wallowing in the misery of "life is hard" as much as you need to this week.
Don't worry about putting on a good face. I know you've got lots of fight and love in you, and in the long run that's what counts. Feel free to give me a call if you want to talk any time this week. It's three hours earlier here so if you call at 4am I'll still be awake. ;)
Nice timing on the job, by the way. And congrats!
Suvi -
It sucks. It happened to me multiple, multiple times. And each time, I reacted a little differently. And you are not wrong for still being a little bit in love with an ex, because I think that love doesn't disappear, it just changes over time. Eventually, it just means something different in regard to that particular person.
Of all of the different reactions that I had, the best was probably a long trip that I took by myself up the Mississippi delta, through Louisiana and Mississippi while listening to Paul Simon's Graceland album on repeat. I kept coming back to the lines, "I may be obliged to defend, every love, every ending, or maybe there are no obligations now." Don't know why, but it made me feel so much better.
i appreciate the honesty very much. of course we all feel like that. i love you suvi. i am so excited for your new job. many congratulations!
I've never done this, but I've been saving it for the next time myself or a friend had a broken heart:
Go to Goodwill.
Buy old plates.
Smash them to pieces!
Doesn't that sound good? I wish I could come do it with you. Love you, Suv.
thank you my dears! i love the suggestions. Music helps, especially played really loudly.
Sarah, i might just try the plate thing, because that would be hilarious!
No, you're not pathetic. I related to everything you wrote in the previous post. You'll find someone again... if there is anything life has taught me, it's that every time I'm down, it gets better. That cycle reminds me that life does, indeed, have its ups and downs. It's on the up swing now, right? :)
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